tonight was very fun. interesting and fun. nate's friend is visiting him for the weekend. i don't want to embarrass anybody so we will call her alexa. alexa and nate started drinking at about 9ish maybe earlier. they are so fun to be around and we had a lot of fun together. we even had a dance party. anyway, long story short by midnight alexa wasn't feeling so well. i took her back up to my apartment. and tried to make sure she was going to be ok. nathan eventually came back upstairs and helped her back to his room. luckily it is only ten feet down the hall. alexa made it to the bathroom in time. thank god, right. nathan and i just helped her as much as we could. mostly by reassuring her that she isn't gross, we've all thrown up from drinking too much. heh. but as i sat there and watched nathan hold alexa'a hair back, i realized that i was witnessing true love. no matter what she said, or did, he still loved her. he didn't mind that he had to be awake for work in a couple of hours. or that he wasn't having the most fun time ever. he just loved her. and cared about her.
and i know that i have experienced true love before. like in my own life. i know that there are plenty of people who have shown me selfless love. and i hope to god there are people that can say i have shown them selfless love. but i don't know. this just hit me way hard. like a ball of emotion in my throat. like everything i hoped in had been fullfilled. i knew, if only in that point in time, that there was good in the world. i don't know if i have ever been the third party in that kind of situation. looking on at such a wonderful scene, in person. in movies and books, sure. but they aren't real life. and i truly doubted before tonight. and i don't really know what their "status" is. but i could definately see them as a couple in the future. or even married. they are beautiful people and beautiful together.
i feel like i have something to strive for. selfless love. unconditional love, for everyone. i want to lead a life of compassion and hospitality.
Who I Am...
- L.H.
- I write everything down. I make food to pay the bills. My kitty is the most loyal man I've ever met. My favorite color will probably always be purple.
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Sweetie. You have always been selfless. Ever since you were a little baby. You have always loved with your heart and been a child of the earth. That's who you are. And i know you have graced alot of people with that love of yours. And your courage and acceptance of others. <333 U kick ass and I hope you always find exactly what you are looking for.
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