Just the girl next door

i went to see dirty dancing today in the theater. i love that movie. no matter what kind of mood i am in, i always feel better after i've watched it. the movie perfectly romanticizes every aspect of human life. throughout the whole movie patrick swayze takes my breath away. my boyfriend is sitting right there next to me. and i can't help but thinking "why dont have an overwhelming passion for brian like i do for characters in movies or books?" i seem to fall so quickly in love with people i don't even know. with people that don't even really exist. patrick's character "johnny" is not only a hearthrob, but an intellectual as well. but believe it or not, i don't admire him for his bulging arm muscles or washboard stomach. johnny is madly in love with baby. and he SHOWS it. i guess most guys think that showing love or appreciation is a weakness, but it is most definately NOT. johnny can't keep his hands off baby. she is absolutely irresistable to him. he lets her know that he will never stray, just by the way his hand gently falls into hers when no one else is looking.
so i told you that to tell you this. i'm not a worldly person. i want a man that loves me and can't keep his hands off me. someday i do want to travel, but right now i'm happy where i am. i grew up playing in carboard boxes with kids down the street. i've never eaten caviar or es cargot. i usually eat at diners. i love music. but i don't feel the need to be unlike everybody else. i don't go searching for underground bands that nobody's heard of just to be different. i usually buy a cd because a friend told me it was good, not because cosmo is telling me to. i love to bake. i weigh a few more pounds than is healthy. i support love. i am naive enough to believe everyone has a soulmate. i am a firm believer that you should give to others whenever you have the ability to.
as i am finishing up i am realizing that if anybody is even reading this, they probablly aren't impressed. but, that's ok. it's not the reaction i was looking for. but i am hoping that people will begin to see things a little differently. peace.