i do this thing where i find someone i like and i start burning bridges without even realizing it. i drop things i never would have because i want them to like me too. i pour my heart into a person i haven't even known for that long. and i have all these amazing friends that have been there forever waiting on the sidelines for the next time i'm available. i tend to let only one person close at a time. and when i get hurt i realize everything that i've been doing wrong and i swear to never let it happen again. but i know it will. because that's just what i do.

and i'm sorry. and i'm trying to even the playing feild. i'm trying to spend my time in a different way.

last night was the most fun i've had in a very long time and i'm ecstatic.