to whom it may concern:

my mom has really been making me feel guilty about partying so much. and it's not even so much partying as it is having fun. i go out with my friends and i come home when i want and i love it. and when mom doesn't like something that i'm doing of course i start to think twice about it. am i really hurting anybody or is mom just being unreasonable? well i just wanted to say, right now, that i don't feel guilty. not one bit.
mom,
i've always been a good kid. i've never got arrested. i've never totaled a car while drunk driving. i never failed any classes. i'm not knocked up. i'm not broke. i'm responsible. i have a job. i do my own laundry.
i put my entire mind and body into school this past year and a half. all i thought about: art. all i did: art. all i loved: art. the topic of conversation with friends: art. between school, homework, and a job i barely had time to think. it was hard being away from school and i had to deal with two different lives. i had to maintain old friendships and constantly make new ones. i learned so much in the past year and a half i'm not even sure how my brain held it all.
so if i want to get drunk, stop giving me shit.
stop making me feel guilty. i pull my weight in this house.
and if i want to be on campus next year to get away from your crazy shit, stop fucking complaining.
you're seriously fucking insane. stop causing pointless fights and relax, bitch.
not everything has to be your way. you always told me that it is beautiful to be different, but you never really believed it. you wish everyone was like you and i'm tired of it. i'm not that person. family is supposed to stick together, but how am i supposed to stand up for you no matter what if you don't appreciate me as a person.
i deserve this summer. i really believe i do. and i don't say that often. but i worked really hard and have completely remodeled the way i think, feel, breathe, and live. i want to have fun. i want to sleep less and party more. i want to get wasted and wake up drunk. i want to go to work after a day at the beach completely relaxed. i want to read a lot of books.
leave me alone.

i love christina so much. i'm so glad i'm here for the whole summer. she is the best friend ever. she is the only person i can be completely annoyed at and be completely content the whole time.

oh and i forgot to mention how much i miss delaware. liz. nate. clementine. bethany. ryan. joe. aline. jesse.
oh my goodness it's so sad. the times we had at dcad will never happen again.