nothing important

i woke up late today. and usually that is an indication that the rest of my day will be crap. but actually, it really hasn't been. i worked with cat and liz and i enjoy working with both of them. it was busy (which is good). i didn't get bored and everything got done. i went to the school really early and bates reinstalled the audio driver for my computer which means it has stopped beeping angrily at me. i bought a new wallet online. i love getting packages so i am really excited about that.

and it was absolutely gorgeous outside today!!

i'm still overly worried about the me relaxing thing. which is his point exactly. i understand that i over analyze some things but i'm not exactly sure how to start differentiating between what is being over analyzed and what isn't. it doesn't help that i'm on my period and overly hormonal. maybe if i wasn't i could stop thinking about it. and just seeing the people i interact with on a daily basis with that in mind... i, comparatively, am a very relaxed person. ugh who knows. i'm so frustrated with myself about the entire thing.

i talked to an old friend today.

i can be a very jealous person. and i absolutely hate that about myself. and i have no idea how to fix it. for other situations i have allowed jealousy to fade over time, but i don't want to be like this anymore. i want to be happy for people.