combo

this post is a combination of me reminding my readers of things i have already stated, and stating things that have recently become necessary to establish.

there are two reasons why i write this blog:
1-for my own well being. writing helps me to think more clearly.
2-to let the people i care about know what is going on in my head.

take note that neither of the above reasons was for popularity, or feedback. feedback from readers is great. but it is not my goal. i do not appreciate it when people feel the need to leave negative feedback.

if you do not like the decisions i am making, or the things i write about DO NOT VISIT THIS PAGE.

it is offensive that a person would:
-tell me that decisions i have made in the past were wrong. who the fuck are you to judge me? get the fuck over yourself.
-blame my problems on said decisions because you did not like them. what is best for you is not necessarily the best thing for me. grow up, not everybody is out to hurt you.
-feel it necessary to point these things out in a NEGATIVE way.
-expect me to approve their comment, and put it on a page that represents myself.
-not have the balls enough to sign their name. in no way does that show me that you really care, does it? get some goddam courage, will you?

there are many times when i post a blog that consists of negative thoughts or complaints. this is not my personality 100% of the time. and if you knew me well enough, you would realize that it is just me venting frustrations. all in all, i love my life. i love my friends, family, and boyfriend.

when i don't know how to explain things to people in person, i write them down. usually what i am trying to explain fits into one of two categories. sometimes both.
1-this feeling or thought is so profound or amazingly wonderful i cannot put it into words. i have realized something that could change my life and don't know how to let others know. therefore i write my thoughts as they come into my head all scrambled up and hope to god that someone, somewhere can make sense of all of it.
2-i feel like shit. these thought are completely opposite of reason one. it is my nature to worry and to stress, it is what i do best. and when i cannot suppress these feelings of anxiety i get pretty upset. and these thoughts are written down in much the same way, only with more negative of a connotation.

so once again i have explained the inner workings of my brain to you.
and once again i have reminded you that i am not really doing this for you if you don't care enough to appreciate it.

so "anonymous" go fuck yourself in the asshole with a porcupine's tail.