the trouble with love is

it doesn't care how flat you fall
and you can't refuse the call
you've got no say at all

Unertow

Silly me, look what I did again
I found what I want
Is what I cannot have
I didn't mean to be so predictable
But I blame it all on who made you irresistible

And it isn't something I need
'til you tell me I can't
Why wear my heart on my sleeve
When it looks so good in your hand

My heart breaks in a heart beat
And you storm me when you come and go
The taste of something so sweet should have
Warned me 'bout the undertow
Oh, I couldn't find a better man to let me go

Little girl, I don't know why you stay
If I had a feather for every time daddy said that I could fly away
Old habits are so hard to break
It'd be a shame to stop now that I've started to make really good mistakes

And I don't know why I must ask
For the forbidden fruit
I saw the snake in the grass
But I had bitten too soon

My heart breaks in a heart beat
And you storm me when you come and go
The taste of something so sweet should have
Warned me 'bout the undertow
Oh, I couldn't find a better man to let me go

I should have seen you coming in
Should recognize the signs a wave's gonna break
Now, I've given in, why fight it when
I'm resigned to simply live in your wake
Your wake

Heart breaks in a heart beat
And you storm me when you come and go
The taste of something so sweet should have
Warned me 'bout the undertow
Oh, I couldn't find a better man to let me go
No no no no
I couldn't find a better man to let me go

something needs to happen soon

you frustrate me beyond belief. i like you and i know you like me too. i guess it's possible that we woud be bad for each other but i honestly think we would be really good together. i love the way you make me laugh. i love the way it feels like nothing else matters when your arm is around me.

time flies

no matter what, time flies. days go by quicker and quicker and everyone tells me it only gets worse.

i would like to stop time. or at least have one those days, like when you were little, that went on forever. baseball in the side yard, then off to the playground for jailbreak, you could always get together a decent number of people for freeze tag at night, and there was even time for ice cream when you got home...

i am trying to make the most of it, though!

insomnia

i need a haircut

it's so hard for me to find somebody that knows what to do with the mess of curls on top of my head.

everyone just wets it down and cuts it like they would straight hair and it always looks the same.

i want something fun!

I'm going to kiss you on the mouth

ahahahahahahhahaaa!

hahahahahhhahahaaaaaa


hahahahhaaaah

ahahahhh!

i am so fucking excited for zach and i's running sunday brunch date! he's the cutest!
today was so much fun! happy birthday to me!

i made a dress!

i know this isn't a great picture and i really need a digital camera.
but, here it is anyway.

i have a few more seams to finish up and i've got myself a birthday outfit!

girls fucking suck.

i seriously hate every one of their stinkin guts.
maybe not everrrryy girl. but a good friend is one in three million these days.

food

so all of a sudden i'm a line cook and it feels like this is what i should have been doing my whole life. i love developing my palette. i love learning about traditions of taste and flavor. i love that the best tasting food is always the smartest and most ecologically responsible food. i love that i work for people with the best intentions. i am so eager to learn and truly excited about the smallest of things. reading books and watching movies is finally exciting because i'm reading about food. it's so much work, all of it, physically and mentally. and sometimes I think that i would rather be lazy, but i would never be happy. i would never find fulfillment. and for the first time in my life i am eager to be older because i know i will be wiser. i want to have experiences and i just want to have a chance to cook anything i can. i have an amazing group of teachers and i couldn't be more thankful. it's always so hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. but, slow and steady wins the race, yeah?

i got a sewing machine for christmas!

this was my first project.... a pot holder for jenn's birthday!

a little sloppy because i haven't sewn since high school, but i'm pleased with it. :D

i am so not getting fat this winter.
i started doing some simple exercises three or four times a week and i've already lost five pounds since summer.
i feel great and my legs and butt have never looked better!
and i still eat and drink whatever i want.
my nice winter coat was just a little too big for me on sunday night.
yayy!

the day is what you make of it, lisa.

so put a smile on.

positive thinking

from here on out.

i think that this is going to happen soon and omg i can't even breathe i'm so excited.

i'm actually being good to myself like i said i was going to. it feels phenomenal.

super excited for a wonderful dinner on sunday!

yay!

cannot stop listening to amy winehouse. so good.

i can take my clothes off, but i cannot fall in love.

i'm going to change that, starting now.
i swear.

relief....
happiest girl in the whole world right now.

i am kinda bugging out.
maybe i need to reprioritize.